i should be grateful
the news was too mind-blowing. i shouldve cried. but i didnt. i dunno why actually. i wanted to just barge into his office and spit on his face. but then i remembered my guy. my present bf. i remembered how nice he is. how caring he is. how simple his life is. and modest. and i sighed. and i realized that id been blessed. and id been too lucky. and i shouldve been grateful. and i shouldntve been bothered by "the frame of my past." for whatever the shit it means. but i know i should be grateful.
thank you love for being patient with me. thank you for embracing me when i needed it. thank you for stepping into my life. thank you for making me feel special. i know and i believe that this time it’s not fake. and this time it’s all up to me to make it work. and i will try to make things work. i will not promise but i will put my effort into it. and i’d try my bestest best to keep your love and to not let you down. for i love you no less than you love me. and i should be grateful.
im sorry love for not being able to be the best for you. be the one that you deserve. be sane and normal like the people of your society. teach me. guide me. lead me. and i should be grateful.
[kle]
